today's dose of beauty

"Listen to the voice of the cedars when no wind stirs.
There you will find yourself."

this is a quote from Ping!, that story of a frog. i even found the picture that the author mentions in the epilogue. anyway, i was reading that book and this quote was just so beautiful i had to have it. and of course i had to share it with you.

i haven't been blogging very regularly lately, for various silly reasons.. one of them being that i feel like i'm going through some sort of spiritual puberty or something, and that in itself is quite an emotional rollercoaster ride. you can imagine, you know? i guess one good thing about satisfying books is that they take you through the whole process to the breakthrough, and you gain something from that. but with blogs.. like this, like mine. i'm a living, breathing person and there's no way to know for sure how the story will end, or when. i definitely hope and plan for the best. but just the same, objectively speaking, there's no way of knowing for sure. plus, on the one hand, although the vast majority of the 6 billion people in the world don't even know i exist, there are people who do know me, and at times it simply isn't very wise to reveal your every vulnerability.

so that's where i'm at now...

although i suppose, in a way, it might be better for me to illustrate my spiritual angst in detail--so the reader can go through the pain with me and when the breakthrough comes, experience the breakthrough together. but for now i opt for waiting until the breakthrough and then telling the whole (complete) story.
so please bear with me until i have my breakthrough.. :o)

some pix i wanted to share..

This is me and Bearistotle (teehee~ sorry, inside joke..)


and this... this is like, can you say "redundant"?

oh i forgot to mention the other day...

it was my birthday on the 29th (of november, yes) and i got a call from Umma that my grandfather passed away. i don't think i'm going to be able to make it to the funeral...

it's kinda strange, but i've never seen a real live dead person. or, as some strongly-computerworld-oriented people might put it, in RL. see, sometimes i r0xx0rs. or something like that. well anyway, somehow it just.. um.. doesn't really feel real to me, i guess. so i don't feel particularly sad.

my grandparents on my father's side died before i was born, so i guess this is kinda the first 'death in the family' for me. i had a cousin who was killed in a car crash a few years back, but as a cousin i think he was several times removed (or something like that-- he was my mother's sister's husband's sibling's son, i think). but i only heard about that, too.

anyway. i think i'm just about ready for a windfall. i'm braced for the avalanche of good news coming my way~ :o)

I discover that my heart isn't made of ice.

I had to include these videos, they're just so great!!!